My personal wake up call...
It began as a typical Monday. I woke up on a June morning, went downstairs to make coffee, and sat on the couch with my journal. Then it hit me - this wave of major self-doubt. It had been building for a while and then, “bam!” I realized I wasn’t living my dream, I wasn’t being who I knew I could be, and I was actually rather unhappy. I couldn’t ignore my self-doubt any longer because it was holding me back.
I had two choices. Option A - Keep ignoring my self-doubt, sip my coffee, go to work, continue my day, continue life as usual. Option B, turn and face the unknown with a ton of courage and see what my realization had to teach me. I chose option B.
Choosing Option B was easy. After all, it was just an idea. But to take action meant questioning parts of my life I had assumed were set in stone. Things like where I worked, if I wanted to be a mother, how much money I was allowed to make, and so on. Questioning all of that would mean rewriting the rules and getting out of my comfort zone. It would mean changing environments. It would mean really going for it.
I turned to my journal and wrote more than I’d ever written before. I wrote up to 2 hours a day for weeks just searching with my pen for where and how to totally redefine my path. What I really wanted to know was how to let go of the self-doubt I had realized was holding me back. And could it really be that easy?
After two months of journaling my heart out, I stumbled on this little nugget: As soon as I accept that I deserve to love my life, I will. And then another wave hit me: I am worthy enough of living a life I am inspired by.
My journal revealed to me that my self-doubt was hiding the truth: I know what I want, and I have the strength to make it happen.
I know my story is not unique. In my next article, I’ll reveal why so many people struggle with self-doubt and talk about why simply letting go of it isn’t enough. Here are two journal prompts I used that can help you discover your own inner-strength again.
If today were the most fulfilling day in my life…
What I want most of all is…
Leave me a comment here about a moment in your life you doubted everything. What did you do? How did you manage it? Thanks for reading part of my story. -Andrea