Going all in
This photo was taken one year ago at my first Awaken Your Practice. This was a big moment for me. It was my first time writing curriculum, my first time filling a weekend event, and my first time teaching my thoughts on business. I would go on to run this event again in the spring, and it's happening again in just two days.
But more than all of the above, this was a moment when I saw how trusting myself and going all in on me can actually pay off.
Although it's very exciting to see something you create be loved and utilized, I'm most proud that I let something activate in me, even when no one else could see it. Keeping your ideas hidden from the world is a mistake.
Maybe it won't work out.
Maybe no one will show up.
Maybe it won't be perfect.
Maybe you have it wrong.
Maybe it doesn't matter?
Maybe you won't know until you try.
I know. Such simple and overused advice - because it's the truth. I'm not even saying your effort has to be any good! But it has to be there. You can't dream your way to the things you desire. I've tried. And all I had to show for it were journals stacked on more journals with unseen, unknown, yet perfect IDEAS.
There's no risk in having the idea. All the risk is in doing the idea. Sharing it, talking about, launching it, creating it, and even when there are crickets you get up tomorrow and share it, talk about it, launch it, and create it all over again.
And I can guarantee you that this will happen. Your idea won't make it at first. Your big beautiful dream tucked away in your head that is all shiny and people are lining the block for? Well it may not meet a single soul when you first release it to the wild world. People might not get it. People may think you're weird or that your passion is too over the top. You might have to explain it until you're blue in the face and they might still look at you like you're totally nuts.
And in some ways, you are.
It's nuts to put yourself out there. You are risking more than you realize, but all that fear that comes out of nowhere at the thought of hitting "send" on that email or "publish" on your new idea is the risk reminding you what's at stake.
When I decided I wasn't going to do the strategy thing as a coach anymore, people didn't want to hire me.
When I decided I would run a business weekend and NOT talk about tactics and sales funnels, not many wanted to sign up.
When I stopped writing tips and tricks for more happiness and wrote from my heart, people told me I was stealing ideas and unsubscribed.
When I decided I was done with Facebook ads and sale pages, fellow biz owners told me I wouldn't be successful and my money would dry up.
And I believed them. I believed every single one of them, because I do this funny thing (and some of you do too) where I look outside myself first before trusting what's already inside. I thought they were right. I thought if I didn't play their game I would be another coach wannabe and that eventually I would have to get a job. I used to look for jobs between coaching calls, you know, just in case.
All this time I had this teeny tiny little voice inside that would whisper to me, "You're not nuts. Don't play the game. Trust what you think is possible." Because I am just enough of a rebel, I let that voice in more and more and more until I just didn't care what other people were adamantly telling me.
One day a reader replied and said three sentences that changed everything for me. She said, "I had never heard of you until this week when I listened to Michael Knouse's podcast featuring yourself and Jennifer Alyse. I think what you are doing is so inspired! You are a force to be reckoned with and it is brave women like you who truly make this world go 'round."
I remember thinking -- Oh my gosh, someone gets it! Maybe I actually can do this the way I want to.
Maybe you can too. Sometimes we have to drown out the noise so we can actually hear what we already know! Will it work? I haven't a clue. I wish I could tell you it will. Maybe I got lucky? Maybe there are things I don't know that helped me break through?
But just maybe it's time you let your far-fetched, crazy, weird, no-one-will-get-it idea out of the bag.